There's no one alone as me in this world. Maybe I was intended to live alone forever. And "forever" for me is a very long time. I think this is the reason why i did what i did. I never though i could do that, but i've been forced by the circumstances. Maybe there was an external force that controlled all my actions, or simply I was designed to do this. My major fear has always been that I could remain alone on my own. That's why I accepted to live with the only person who could stay with me. And when this person wasn't there, i looked for someone who could replace him. I know, this is selfish. But this is my nature.